I’ve not written about my #100daysofhappiness since Day 56. I’m now on the home straight of the 100 days (today is day 94) so thought now would be a good time to break my silence on the happy days.
There’s lots of happy days to update you on…Life has been pretty full on over the last month so I’ve not been blogging BUT today I come to you from a very happy place! Not literally, I’m in my kitchen… but just generally. First, an update on my happy days…..
Day 43 – Had a visit at work from a lovely friend
Day 44 – An evening of lols last night with my girls to celebrate Miss Laurian’s birthday
Day 45 – Little visit to see my faves today even if I wasn’t the usual fun Auntie Katie due to a LOT of booze last night
Day 46 – Went upside down with no hands at pole tonight! Whoop!
Day 47 – Lovely catch up with friends and their kiddies
Day 48 – Free Boost because my name came up in their social media campaign, lovely catch up with Trottski and came home to a really lovely card from my Auntie Susan
Day 49 – This time next week I’ll be packing my bags to head off to Liverpool! Excited!!
Day 50 – Worked with a lovely group of young girls today. Giving back to the local community makes you feel good!
Day 51 – felt good to get back out on an outdoor run
Day 52 – had a lovely evening with some lovely ladies
Day 53 – Just finished a pretty awesome cake and went upside down with no hands again tonight
Day 54 – PANCAKES
Day 55 – packed my case ready for my weekend in Liverpool!
Day 56 – Found this forgotten photo from Thailand
This doesn’t take us to today (I am on Day 77) but I’ll post the rest of the days later.
Now, I want to say, I dread to think how I would have been feeling over these 77 days if I hadn’t embarked on #100daysofhappiness. It’s been tough but I’ve found that forcing myself to see the positives each day has really helped and I was beginning to feel loads better about life.
Then, out of the blue I got a text from Mr Not So Perfect to ask how I was. I had ALL the intentions of not replying but then 3 days later I got drunk. So at 4am, I stumbled through the front door and had the genius idea of responding. Good one Katie. It resulted in a bit of back and forth, no niceties from my side and obviously, the next day fear set in and I knew I had made a big mistake. When he then text again a few days later fishing for me to tell him I still cared for him, I told him to never contact me again and he agreed he wouldn’t. I was really proud of myself. But I regressed and suddenly went back to feeling the same way I did in the days after I found out the truth and it was really horrible.
BUT slowly over this last month I have been trying to put things into perspective. I’ve been through worse in life, I really have. It’s not something to talk about here but the love and strength my family and I had got us all here today so I thought, if I got through that, I can get through this. And it got me thinking, I have been devastated, sad and heartbroken over this numpty whilst other people in my life have been dealing with much bigger challenges, battles and heartbreak, suffering much more pain, worry and sadness than I have had to deal with in the last few months. I’ve just been too self-absorbed to think about it before.
Someone asked me this week if I’m happy being single and truthfully, I said I am. I am getting to know me and what I want in life. I love my life, I enjoy living it the way I do and it’s going to take someone special to become a part of it.
Something has worked though… Mr Not So Perfect stuck by his word for almost a month. Until earlier this week. He contacted me to again say he is sorry, he still thinks of me and that I will always be in his thoughts. I’ve not replied. I’ve actually found it laughable and it’s made me more determined than ever to keep smiling.
Lots of Love
It’s been a while since I updated you all on my #100daysofhappiness so thought I’d let you all know my smile moments from the last few weeks…
Day 24 – I know some people don’t believe in fate but I definitely do and love when little things happen to prove to me I am right to believe
Day 25 – Really enjoyed doing something nice for everyone at work #BrewMonday
Day 26 – Nice little eve watching the football with the fam
Day 27 – I know some people hate it but knowing that my 100 days brings happiness to some other people as well as myself
Day 28 – Being the person that someone turns to when they need something sparkly to wear #QueenOfSparkle
Day 29 – Sam Smith tickets finally on way to be reunited with their rightful owner (me!)
Day 30 – Absolutely amazing cake course today. Created this beauty…
Day 31 – Had a lovely day with my family celebrating my Nan’s 83rd birthday. Love.
Day 32 – A good day! The tickets arrived in one piece, I booked train tickets to visit a special someone in Liverpool and have also booked the Anfield Stadium tour after almost 20 years!
Day 33 – had some good feedback today which shows that hard work does pay off
Day 34 – Glad that my 100 days are having a positive effect on others!
Day 35 – Productive planning day followed by a lovely dinner at The Bell
Day 36 – Lovely wine, wagas and Jessie Ware with the best one!
Day 37 – Jack Whitehall’s sketch about why the Lion King is NOT just a kids film… Ha ha!!!
Day 38 – Feeling really positive today! Acknowledgment from someone special that each day I am taking a step in the right direction! Also an unexpected act of kindness from someone made me smile xx
Day 39 – Love that Camilla can put up with my cray-ness about outfits #crazymoron but she still loves me
Day 40 – Nice few drinks tonight
Day 41 – Happy with how lessons in life can change your feelings and actions for the better!
Day 42 – Massage and nails booked for Saturday morning!
Reading back over these last few weeks has again made me smile. I think that the above reasons for happiness really show my true colours as a person and about what makes me tick…. Friends, family, happy work life, music, football, cakes and pampering. Almost all the things I love the most in life!
I think the days of happiness also show that it’s not always material things that make you happy. Yes, buying shoes, handbags and clothes makes me happy. Yes, holidays make me happy but there are also lots of things that money can’t buy which make me the happiest.
One particular thing I’ve discovered this week is the kindness of others. On day 38 I mention about an act of kindness that made me smile. A really old friend of mine has recently left Essex for the great city of Liverpool. During the period where we were both single we partied together and she introduced me to some of her other friends. It was those girls that made me smile on day 38. We’ve not seen each other since that night out really and then, knowing that I have been through a tough time, they messaged to invite me over for dinner to catch up. It’s a really small thing but honestly, I just thought it was so kind of them and I am sure they don’t realise how touched I was.
The other act of kindness was in repayment to something nice that I did. There’s a guy in my office, really laid back kind of guy. Nothing ever bothers him, everything is water off a duck’s back to him. He never gets down, never gets annoyed, never lets anything get to him. I was standing at the printer and heard him sigh which is unusual so I asked him if he was OK. Turns out that something had annoyed him so he ranted and I listened. I didn’t really think anything of it at the time to be honest.
Then later he was sorting his cupboard out and there was a bottle of Veuve Clicquot in there, I mentioned in jest that I was eyeing it up as it was my favourite champagne. He then walked over and gave it to me. He said ‘You have it. You are the only person today that’s asked if I am alright, no other f*cker has’. I was taken aback that obviously something I felt was nothing actually made a difference to him.
So don’t ever underestimate being kind to someone. It’s not about being over the top and super friendly all day every day. Sometimes it’s the smallest things that make the biggest difference.